It was so foggy late last night, so much that I could hardly see my neighbourhood building. There is nothing like walking on a road on winter night under yellow sodium Street light. I think that's the beauty of Delhi and the entire NCR region. The often crowded Atta market becomes beautiful, mostly attributed by the beautiful in colorful cloths. I like Delhi winters a lot, the temperaments of the people are under control, the coffee tastes better, the bazaars are bright and look fresh.
Why does time flies by so fast? 2008 is ending, the memories of new year is still fresh and can't believe its year end. There used to be days in school when weekends used to be so far and every day used to be painful, Maths homework was never up to date. Hindi classes were pathetic. English teacher was like monster. Every day used to be a challenge. So much that my memories of final years of school are fresh and scary. And I often dream of flunking in my 11th and 12th standards. Even the three years of grads were quite long . But these two and half years of work has been super fast. I wonder if the pace of time remains same the day when I will be retiring is not so far away. God things are so scary. May be because when we were studying we had time for every thing ..studies..sports and what not. Our time was managed by school time table and parents, But when we took control of our lives, we messed up everything and found time for nothing!
I learned something special this week. This thing was casually said to me by a Senior at work. The situation is ..I am going through another profile change, something totally different from what I am doing now and I am having difficulty keeping up with the change. Discussing my current scenario and whether I should take the new role or not and How will I be able to handle the pressure, expectation and I am not at all prepared to move completely to a new geography... he remarked "Ranjan, you think too much about the future, as In what you will be doing when you will be 50 or 60 year old, why don't you take one day at time and see how it goes?"
And it worked... I was screwed up thinking too much about how its going to happen, which converted into stress... I started taking one thing time.. one by one..each day .. and I feel better... and slightly more confident than yesterday. I realise I have really messed up many thing in life by over thinking. And the best thing happened on the spur of the moment... examples are plenty.
